Sea of Failure

Abject failure- 
and feelings of worthlessness 
Deep down 
in the green blue sorrow 
my soul is drowning. 

It’s hard to breathe- 
beneath the crushing waves- 
of apathy. 

To be seen in the sun- 
if only for a minute- 
would keep me afloat. 

But it is hard to swim 
When you have been sinking for so long 
In the Sea of Failure.

This entry was posted on April 24, 2013. 1 Comment


You try to tear my empire down-
With your tiny rocks.
I see your lips move-
But hear no sounds.

Did you expect my walls
to tumble down.
Did you expect me
to lose my crown.

Empires rise and fall-
But not due to the likes of you.
They beckon only to a select few.

So wage your war-
With your tiny pieces of rubble.
I shall not weep over your actions.
You shall cause me no trouble.


The pain in my soul~
knows no bounds.
Sadness flows like waves~
in the open ocean.

If I could just breathe~
If I could just laugh~
Maybe I would be OK.

Unable to catch myself~
Unable to breathe~

My descent into madness~
Where no one will follow me.

I can breathe

Tired of being a lemming~
tired of following the crowd~
afraid of voicing ideas before~
but no more~
today I shout!

You say I am wrong~
my ideas flawed~
not how it should be done~
But who are you?
Did you make up the rules?
Are you the authority?
If it works why is it wrong?
Just because it is not what you choose?
Humans make up the rules as they go.
I refuse to stand in your shadow~
Into the sun I will walk with my ideas held high.

If I could

If I could just slip into anonymity~
beneath the waves.
Where no one knows my name~
or my deeds.

Would it be simpler then~
to live without your love?
Under the waves~
where my heart could drown.
Under the waves~
where I could never be found.
Under the waves~
where I could slip into anonymity.
Under the waves~
where I could be free.

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The remnants of my life~
lay scattered on the floor.
can I say anymore?

My scars bleed excessively ~
because they are so deep.

My heart still beats~
beneath shattered remnants ~
a story left to be told~
a love never allowed to grow.

Poison in my veins.

Poem Tidbit

You want closure you can never have~
because in the back of your mind it festers and bleeds~
haunts you in your sleep~
waking you up~
always leaving you wondering WHY.